A Different Kind of Understanding
I’ve been nursing a secret love. A love many of you have been unaware of for many years, even longer than I’ve been blogging, a love that those who know me best, do not know about. Recently, that love has deepened and intensified, leading me to take a complete leap of faith…
By purchasing this ticket…
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1 | Alice In Chains – Acoustic Hour Mon, Oct 1, 2007 07:00 PM |
House of Blues New Orleans New Orleans, LA |
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Without knowing if I can scrape the money together for the plane ticket, etc. etc. but I couldn’t wait because the Austin show already sold out! My secret love is Alice In Chains. Since the fire, I’ve attempted to catalogue the sheer volume of cassettes and CDs I had. Every time I listen to the radio I think, “Damn, I used to have that CD/cassette.” When it came time to try and start my collection again, I actually made the difficult choice not to buy Alice In Chains. Instead, I bought Jerry Cantrell’s solo albums, “Boggy Depot” and “Degradation Trip, Volumes 1 & 2.”
Do nothing at home
I disappear, turn off the phone
I lose myself
Hide from the sun
I make a trip, when I’m out of fun
– Cut You In – Boggy Depot
I love Jerry Cantrell. I loved him with Alice In Chains. I love him more now. He’s an incredible songwriter, in-fucking-credible. I’m trying to find a good way to put this. Jerry makes you feel with every lyric and every note. No, that’s not it. That’s only part of it. Its like he’s Voldemort in a way. He kills a part of his past and put a piece of his pain, his mirth, his sadness, his love, his regret, his addiction, his soul in every song.
Miles away I rest my weary head
Next to you
No coldness in my eye
Cut the skin and take my sorry hide
Cover you
Make love with you
It bleeds upon my back
Strapped with silver tacks
Wish I’d loved you more
and never shut that door
the waves that run the shore
Wash away the stones of pain we bore
I tortured you
I tried to drown my hate
Under an ocean, I still wait…
– Breaks My Back – Boggy Depot
And at times, so fucking honest…
Only took a few years to see that through
Now you’re most likely to end up dead alone in a hotel room
31/32
Roust the boy, smack the wife
Might have one… case tonight
Alcoholic breath, thick drool
Repetitive, belligerent and cruel
Can’t get away, no hiding place
The boy hesitates, when grown he’ll make the same mistakes…
Age adult, mother gone
Friends with dad don’t really talk
Wanted to, now you’re a star
Make a living, milking scars
– 31/32 – Degradation Trip, Volume 2
Beautiful, beautiful voice and he’s so not afraid to take his time with a song. And I love it because his voice and mine are in the same vocal range. No screeching.
However, the lyrics aren’t any brighter or more cheerful than Alice In Chains. The music can be dark, melancholy, angry, and hauntingly beautiful and heartbreaking.
Found a sickness that was mine
chose a life out on the run
All alone inside this game
Until I’m done
Sometimes I don’t think I can trust myself no more
Seems I’ve failed you all my life
Youthful dreams you’d be my wife
Before I fall into the sun
If there never is again
You were the one
Sometimes I don’t think I can trust myself no more
So I don’t feel I can love you anymore…
On this settling down
Oh I better lay down and rest awhile…
And I say no
– Settling Down – Boggy Depot
And re-reading AIC lyrics and listening to Jerry, makes me really miss my AIC CDs. Actually, I think I had Facelift on cassette. Now, years later, I may just pick up Music Bank, their box set or The Essential Alice in Chains, although I’m really strange in that I like to have all of the different CDs, not just the box set.
It has been a difficult year. While Black Stone Cherry’s music picked me up and carried me, encouraged me, lead me to keep the faith, when I want to disappear and turn off the phone, I listen to Jerry. We have a different kind of understanding.
Inanna said,
August 11, 2007 at 11:10 pm
P.S. Half of my horoscope – Sagittarius: Today is perfect for travel — even if you’re just fantasizing or planning your dream trip. If you’re actually on the road, your energy couldn’t be better. If not, pick a destination and find a way to get there!
HELL YEAH!
kama said,
August 12, 2007 at 9:44 am
You know you have a place to stay.
Vince said,
August 12, 2007 at 11:27 am
I’ve always liked Alice in Chains. Of all the “grung” bands, I think they were the only one to live up to the name with their sound.
LisaBinDaCity said,
August 12, 2007 at 7:57 pm
Sounds like something fun to look forward to!
Inanna said,
August 13, 2007 at 10:10 pm
K – Yeah, I need to call you about that.
Vince – AIC were the only grunge band besides Nirvana that I really, really liked. Pearl Jam to a degree.
Lisa – Of course, and I’ll hopefully get to see Seven again! Yay!
Jammie J said,
August 14, 2007 at 12:16 am
Hey, a girl’s gotta have her goals, eh? 🙂
Tina said,
August 14, 2007 at 1:57 pm
Dude that is so kickass! I am envious! Alice In Chains is the bomb!
tinyhands said,
August 14, 2007 at 2:12 pm
PeachWranglers can aquire music for those in need. Ask and ye shall receive.
Zelda said,
August 15, 2007 at 4:18 am
Need you, babe.
Liz said,
August 15, 2007 at 8:13 am
I have had a love for Alice in Chains too… My “MTV Unplugged” CD is sooo old and worn. I have replaced it twice already. My most listend to CD EVER!
I hope you get to go. I wish I could go too!!
Kay Dennison said,
August 15, 2007 at 3:38 pm
Sounds great!!!!!!!!!!!! I would love to see Alice in Chains!!!! Rock on!
And check eBay or half.com — you might find some great prices on music!
brightonandbear said,
August 15, 2007 at 8:00 pm
Not a fan, but if you are then go for it. Have fun!! If you make it to Houston by way of New Orleans…